I went to the nutritionist yesterday. She wasn't nearly as scary as my doctor had said! She didn't say anything that wasn't just plain common sense, and/or good organic sense. I got a little insight as to maybe why it seems like my mom and I seem to get every weird ailment out there and people like my dad and husband don't. She framed it in terms of the body's ability to naturally sift out toxins. Some people's bodies do it well, others do it poorly. That makes sense. Someone like my husband can eat pretty much whatever and his body can pick out the good stuff and toss the rest of the crap. Me, my body's a hoarder. It keeps everything, and then lives in it's own toxic cesspool.
It was a really great day yesterday. I went to work, met mom for lunch while I got an iv saline bag, and then to the appointment. After the saline bag, I was feeling so chipper and energetic. It was awesome. I need days like that to remind myself of reality: the reality that life and the future are not as overwhelming as they feel. When I feel like I do today, I have to remind myself of days like yesterday. Otherwise, I would believe all my negative thoughts.
I felt pretty cruddy today. I wanted to do so much. I wanted to clean, and cook, and grocery shop, and do laundry. I did succeed in cleaning the bedroom and making a birthday card for my in-laws, and that's about it. The rest of the time I was sitting like a bump on a log thinking of all the things that I should be doing. It's like the real me was trapped inside my brain going "OK, I'm going to do x, y, and z. Ready? 1, 2, 3, GO! Why aren't I going?"
But yesterday was good. I'll think about yesterday.
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